Showing posts with label forex trading. Show all posts
Showing posts with label forex trading. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Back Home

Made it back home yesterday from a 872 mile door to door drive. Besides getting up at 4 a.m. it really wasn't all that bad, and what was really great was to come home to a totally clean and organized home. I loved it.

Had some drama with people, which I spoke up about and ended up being kinda the hero. Annoying and unwanted person decided to go back home, simultaneously showing that their own comfort was more important than being there for their son and grand daughter to be.

Basically, my brother-in-law's dad came up to Washington to be there for the new baby that was due December 1st. (She didn't come until the 9th though, just after I left) Well, I was there mainly to be the buffer between the in laws and my Sister in  Law, as she isn't comfortable with her husbands dad. He is after all, a self proclaimed "Dick". The second day of their visit I was awoken and told I needed to diffuse a situation, as the Dad had pulled her and her husband outside alone, and proceeded to scream at them about their finances. By the time I made it to the living room my sister-in-law had thrown up and peed on herself due to the stress of it all. I spent 20 mins doing dished deciding what the hell to say. In the end, I told him that whatever the conversation was about was none of my business, but the results of that conversation where, meaning: Don't give my sister-in-law that kind of stress while you're here. 

I was extremely surprised that this abrasive redneck asshole didn't get all riled up and get in my face. On the contrary, he barely made eye contact with me. Long story short, a few hours later he was walking his bags out to the truck to leave for home. A 2,500 mile drive back to Kentucky, because he "Wasn't going to stay somewhere he felt he wasn't wanted". Of course, he couldn't say that to me, I had to hear it from his son, who was super pissed at me because his parents where now leaving because of me. I did what was in my heart and I stood up for someone who needed it. She was very relieved to see them go.

Had some drama with the car, which scared the crap out of me because I was seriously sure it was not going to make it back home. Thank God it turned out to simply be a seriously clogged EGR valve and I had brought all my tools and took care of it! I also took a look at the spark plugs and they were disgusting so I bought new ones and replaced them.





















Had some drama trying to help a close friend of the family change the breaks and rear rotors of his Cadillac. He was supposed to meet me at the on base auto shop at 8 a.m. because that is when they open, and they fill up fast. He had been up working till 1 a.m. that morning and had a girl over as well, so I was pretty sure he wouldn't be awake. Problem is, I missed my 7:10 a.m. alarm somehow.... I woke up with enough time to get to the shop @ 7:51. When he finally answered my 10th call, he said he wanted his friend to come a long so he would meet me back at the house. By the time we made it back to the shop, all the lift bays were taken and I had been telling him since the day before "We don't need a lift bay to change brakes and rotors", but he responded saying "My dad broke the frame of his Cadillac lifting it up on a jack". Yeah... because cars aren't made to handle their own weight...

Anyways, because he was determined to use a lift bay, we drove to another shop about 15 mins away. I called on the way and out of the 10 bays they had, 8 were already gone, and when we arrived all of them were taken. We had to drive back to the original place and start the job 2 hours late. It was kinda frustrating, but getting the job done (With only a jack and stands btw) was satisfying. He had also purchased new calipers because some tire shop told him that his were ceased when they inspected them. Turns out they were perfectly fine. When shops suspect that you know nothing about cars they will try their best to take advantage of that! Luckily, he returned the calipers (Which were the wrong ones anyhow) and by a stroke of luck he had bought them on sale and the store made a mistake and gave him back twice what he had paid for them... Pretty funny.







































Had some drama with my trading, due mainly to trying to trade on my laptop, and lost about 4%. What's worse, is that I entered a trade that would have made all my losses up plus a profit. It was the last trade I took and it went nearly to the profit target I had set, and came all the way back down to break even. Had I just held my stoploss and accepted the risk, I would have made a profit that day (EUR Rate decision). BUT, and I call attention to this for all of you traders reading, I do not regret moving my stop to break even. It was my decision and my plan and I followed it, which is what matters.

You can see by the chart below that the move was huge and took place over a few hours instead of mere minutes like usual. Part of the reason I lost so much money was because the buy and sell order windows kept disappearing on me, so I had to go down to the task bar and find them again. It really screwed up my timing.















Nothing else to report at the moment.

Thursday, November 5, 2015

FUCK DAYLIGHT SAVINGS!!!

You know what? I am usually very flat emotionally when I'm in a trade... Whether I'm up or down I tend to respond the same which is calm... but today... FUCK TODAY.

I am so Goddamn pissed right now man, and it's all my fucking fault. My responsibility as a trader is to get the goddamn time that news events are releasing CORRECT. FUCK.....

I had GBP Rate trade written down in my calendar for 6:00am... and thanks to Daylight savings time happening AFTER I wrote that down... the trade was Actually at 5:00am... so I opened the charts to do my pre-release analysis and BAM.... the trade had already taken place and fired off 120+ pips straight down... Action I could have traded profitably....

But no. I had to fucking get there late. And even though my rules tell me not to trade after the release like that, I fucking was so pissed I went in to trade anyhow... Go figure just as I am bracketing a range price fucking starts whipsawing over and over AND OVER again... I just fucking hate that!

So now I'm fucking basically break even because I broke my rules and all that shit... fuck man... FUCKKK!!!

Here's a fucking picture. Fuck this shit. At least Non-Farm Payroll is tomorrow and I will fucking be there on time. Goddammit.
















Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Shitty dreams and a Trading Day

For the last few years I have regularly had strange and very negative dreams almost every night. As a younger person I would have called them nightmares, but somehow I am usually just able to live in the dream and be a part of it as if it were normal and not scary or anything, even though it feels 100% real. Last night I had a significantly difficult dream. I dreamed that it was night out and I was in a strange country walking in the dark with a flashlight towards a gated off airstrip runway. As I approached the gate, several two headed animals approached me, like tigers and hyenas. Their heads weren't side by side like most two headed creatures, but rather stacked on top of each other. I was afraid of them, but they just approached and sniffed me and let me be. I entered the gate to see a few black men dressed in green military uniforms greeting me, as if we were acquainted already and I had been there several times. They opened a door and we began to walk into a tunnel. It was a cramped tunnel with no lights and a muddy dirt floor, as if it had been flooded or raining recently. I was very uneasy emotionally as I was walking down the corridor trying to avoid puddles that had formed in all the deep muddy footprints. As I reached the end of the Tunnel there was a little cupboard or closet type space and I opened the door to find two children inside wearing nothing but diapers. I realized that one of them was my son and he was blind. He was in the dark, and he went to lay back down after I opened the door and shined the light on him. He looked just as he did the last time I saw him, a little blonde-haired, blue-eye toddler.... I felt so bad to watch him lay his body down on the cold cement inside that little closet in the pure cold darkness.... He just laid back down as if that was all he wanted to do, as if it was all he ever did...

No one was there to take care of him. He was abandoned... I had with me a few small pillows and I spoke to him "This is how I like to sleep" and I showed him that I like to sleep with a pillow between my legs. He didn't respond and I had to once again realize he was blind, so I touched his body and positioned the pillow between his legs and put another one in front of him to hug... It was devastating. And then I woke up and wanted to cry. I've done some pretty horrible things in my life, and as much as I try to forgive myself for them and realize that I am human, I obviously have not forgiven myself.

There are few things that hurt worse than having a dream in which your son is blind and abandoned in a freezing cold concrete floored closet. Just watching his tiny bare chest touch the floor sent chills through my body and instantly reminded me of the time I was in jail. They keep it so cold there, and no one cares about you at all... period. They live a totally separate reality on the other side of that cell door. You may as well not even exist. And that's how I interpreted the cold silent moment with my son... I felt his helplessness... but what was even worse, I watched his innocence shroud him in not being able to understand anything about what was going on, and only knowing and accepting it as reality.

I feel torn up inside, even right now, imagining that situation and that I am the cause of it. If I had any sense at all, I would have picked him up and taken him out of there... but for some reason, as in all of these terrible dreams I just follow the script because that's what's laid before my eyes... I wish in that dream and all others like it that I wasn't just a human on rails following a locked in destiny of my morbid unforgiven mind. I should have been the hero that rescued that boy instead of assisting him in his imprisonment. I am so mad at myself, and I try to tell myself it was just a dream... this one hit so close to my heart. I shared so much love with that boy, and I went from being #1 in his life to not existing at all... I have my reasons, and they stand firm, but there is a price to pay for every choice made. My choice was to stay completely out of his life knowing he would be well taken care of, rather than being someone he loved so much that only had the opportunity to be in his life a few times a year, if that. I'd rather him forget about me completely. I'd rather have these horrible dreams, if I can wake up knowing it's just me guilt tripping myself and not him agonizing over me in real life. At this point I've been gone for over 5 years, and that is how long I've been beating myself up about a decision that was supposed to be best for him. No amount of money, or personal success will ever take the burden of that decision off my shoulders, as well as other decisions I've made in my life. I hate that these truth's attack when I am supposed to be resting. I need rest. My soul needs rest, and I don't know how to find it.

Skip a head several hours later and many attempts to sleep that were unsuccessful...

Here are some trades I am up in at the moment in the stock market and my trading EURUSD Rate decision trading day.






I would really love to have the balls to trade this awesome action, but I don't have those balls AND I have a dentist appointment for a crown consultation soon and I don't want to get stuck here at the computer.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Trade Update and completion

The other day I saw that the EUR/USD was near resistance from mid February and reversing, so I took a position short and placed my stop above the highs for a quick stop out if I was wrong. Currently sitting @ +200 pips. I've moved my stop to break even plus a few pips. If this trade were larger I would probably just take a part of the position off for a little profit, but it's rather small so it will either hit my take profit or stop me out at break even. Here is the chart.

















By the way I have also found a rather sweet website for free advanced charts. It's kinda like the facebook of Trading. Very cool, check out Tradingview.com and see what I'm talking about!

UPDATE 5.20.2015




I looked at the chart and was like "Well, what's a little bit more profit really going to benefit me in contrast to risking no profit at all? Technically the floor was hit and I didn't set my profit target according to the more recent area." So I took profits. Never mind the box on the left chart, that was just for me to see how price behaved around the zone. Could have had a few martingale winners.

UPDATE 5.21.2015

Initial target was hit. The orange rectangles are from a new tool I found last night that allow you to draw zones and get alerts when price is near them. May come in handy so I'm trying it out.

Friday, May 8, 2015

Quick trading update

Took a few trades while back . been too lazy to report on them but here they are. hopefully it is clear to understand. any questions just ask .


Sunday, April 26, 2015

Starting to finally feel positive about my ability to make money

In the space of the last few months I have teetered back and forth between feeling negatively and positively about my abilities and future performance in the trading world shortly ahead for me.

When I came across Tim Sykes's material I got a rush of inspiration. I ordered his DVD How to make Millions. I hated the idea of trading stocks, but thought to myself "If this is the way to make money, I need to overcome that and do this."

I began to feel negative about Forex trading due to Tim expressing his negativity about it. It really threw me off. So I put the majority of my efforts towards learning his methods of stock trading.

In the last few weeks I have had a lot of time to digest things and I have also come across a man named Jason Stapleton on YouTube. He is a professional Forex trader and has some really excellent free material. I mean top notch no bullshit instruction. Consuming his material with lots of focus centered me quite a bit and allowed me to focus on some things. Some things I had forgotten, and some things I hadn't yet realized. Here are my thoughts:

Tim does indeed have a pretty awesome strategy. It not only makes sense, but is most importantly available to pretty much anyone who can open an account and start trading. If you are disciplined and do as he says, I believe you will over time make money. The biggest benefit of Tim's strategy in my opinion, is that it is quite predictable. Shady companies that pay promoters to pump up the stock price always fail eventually. In all honesty however, I feel that is where the advantages of his methods fall short in contrast to trading Forex.

On what will seem like a total side note, a long time ago I purchased a Trading robot from Rob Booker called "the Mouse Trap". I became interested in it after hearing Rob and his friend Chris Davison talk about it in one of his very early podcasts. I purchased the robot and backtested it in Metatrader and sure enough, it would turn a $10,000 deposit into millions over a period of years. Upon Seeing those results I had decided to leave my desktop on at home with the robot running to see how it did with live trading. As the numbers suggested, it only won about 15% of the time. I let it run long enough to lose a lot and then one good winner brought it back to where I had started it. Shortly after that, I decided I wanted to have my computer on the road with me so I took it along. Being that I couldn't keep that computer connected to the internet 24/7 I no longer ran the mouse trap, and thus eventually forgot about it altogether and began later on focusing on using the other robot I bought from Rob, "the Box".

Anyways, watching Jason's videos happened to remind me of a very critical element in the trading world: Statistics. More importantly, statistics derived from back testing. You see, when a methodology has very strict rule based entries and exits, it's performance can be repeated again and again through back testing and also applied to "forward testing". That is where Tim's strategy fails. Yes he has a track record of profitability, but it's his track record. And his entries and exits are based more on guidelines than strict mechanical rules. His track record is a direct reflection of his personal experience, which is entirely unique to him.

With the mouse trap, each entry is rule based and uses no subjectivity whatsoever. I was reminded of this while watching Jason's video about what he calls "The 2618" trade. I won't get into the details, but in the two and half hour video he shows you the precise rules for entry and exit that leave no room for subjectivity. He then shows you exact statistics that system has produced over a 12 month period. That is what I needed.

I needed numbers. I needed results. Why? Well, in another video Jason made the point of exactly why I needed them. Statistics give us a basis for belief, which when built to a level of certainty causes us to take massive action. Massive action then produces massive results, which again feed our beliefs. I am a person that has always taken a level of high action when I believe in something fully. Remember the network marketing company I maxed out my credit cards to be a part of? I spent that $3,000 because I had a statistical number I believed in, and that was a very small number. They had found that only about 3% of people responded and that was enough to get me thinking massive and acting massive.

The fact that Tim only provides guidelines effectively hampers one's ability to gain concrete back-tested data to build certainty on. I have a few other points in mind that I wish to express as well.

Anytime Tim speaks about leverage, he always speaks negatively about it and usually attaches Forex trading along with it for a group scalding. What I need to say is that Tim is always reminding us that penny stocks are the only financial instrument he knows of that moves 50% in a day, which is why he tauts it as the best way to "get rich". The point I want to make is that the leverage in Forex allows the currency market to basically scale it's gains and losses to that of Tim's penny stock realm. With that said.. Yes, yes, leverage can be dangerous, but so can any financial instrument in the hands of the uninitiated.

As I digested Tim's material internally while simultaneously taking in Jason's material, it began to become clear to me what had happened in my heart and mind. The same thing that happens to all who lose their personal sovereignty at the words of a Guru: You begin to believe without question what you are told. Here is Tim, a very successful trader worth millions, showing you exactly how he made his millions, telling you with authority that Forex trading and using leverage will get you essentially nowhere but owing your broker money. A light bulb came on over my head. Tim spoke so negatively about Forex trading because all he ever heard about was people losing money. He had always been obsessed with Stocks and hated on Forex without experiencing it for himself. Had he been successful in Forex, he'd probably be hating on stocks just like I did before I took the time to understand how they work. It doesn't matter who you are, or how much you know about your specialty... Your authority only covers what you yourself are an expert at. As a truck driver I have come across people who only drive trucks, that sit there and try to convince me I can't do what I do on my street bike, even though I do it all the time. I can't tell you how many people I have come across that have spoken with authority about things I can't do, that I have already done successfully. I simply realized that Tim was no different than someone telling me I'm going to destroy the transmission in my bike because I don't shift with the clutch. They don't know shit about what I do or how it works, and unfortunately, neither does Tim. In fact, Tim mentions over and over again throughout his materials, his ignorance of the Forex market. I am not bashing Tim about any of this, just expressing what came to light in my mind about it all.

So, aside from the Leverage issue, There are some other comparison in which I am now starting to feel that penny stocks are not as great as I initially thought. There is a long list of issues that may make mechanical Forex trading look much better by the end of this.

First of all is the giant setback of what is called the Pattern Day Trader Rule, which restrict anyone who has less than $25,000 in their account to only 3 trades per 5 day rolling period. Which ultimately limits you to two trades unless you plan on holding that third position until you can legally exit it again... With Forex you are free to trade as many times as you want.

A large part of Tim's strategy when playing pump and dump stocks, is going short. Well, if you plan on shorting a penny stock, you first have to reserve shares to short otherwise you risk missing the trade altogether. Secondly, for any stock below $2.50 you still have to put up collateral for that stock as if it were $2.50 anyways. Want to short 10,000 shares of a $.10 stock? Although the value of that trade is only $1,000 you'll need to have $25,000 in your account just to put the trade on. In Forex you trade whatever your account will allow you. After that issue is the short stock restriction. If the stock falls 10% on the day you can't short the stock unless it upticks first. In Forex you can short at any time the market will fill your order. Lastly is liquidity. In penny stocks, a lot of the volatility produced comes from the fact that there are very few shares to trade at times. I won't go into numbers, but the shift from penny stocks to the Forex market is literally going from one of the least liquid instruments to the most liquid instrument on Earth. For those of you who don't understand liquidity, liquidity refers to the ease of which you can enter and exit a transaction. Real Estate is very illiquid, the majority of high priced stocks are very liquid, and the currency markets are the most liquid. The larger position you transact, the more liquid you want your market to be, otherwise you suffer what is called "Slippage". That is when the market's supply cannot meet your demand and the price changes out of your favor until enough supply is met to fulfill your demand. I could explain in depth but now is not the time.

I truly love what Tim does. I am not knocking it in anyway and I am in fact glad I purchased his DVD. It's taught me some valuable things and I can carry that over to other parts of my trading. Well worth every penny and if you love stock trading you should go buy it.

It however as I've mentioned previously, does not come with built in predictable metrics you can build belief upon. You must first adhere to guidelines as best you can until you produce enough results to analyze for yourself. This can take an enormous amount of time, an amount that can hold many back. I am sure if someone had the time and interest they could create a set of strict, non-subjective rules regarding Tim's system and go backtest it for solid statistics, but I don't think that will even enter the minds of the people he is reaching because he doesn't think or teach from that frame of mind at all. I think the belief generated in the minds of his students comes mainly from testimonials of other successful students. The ones who have applied serious study and application of what Tim teaches and made it personal for themselves as much as Tim has made it personal for himself. I have simply lost interest for the time being as I need more to go on that other people successes. I need numbers, and Tim has no way to provide them.

The Mouse Trap on the other hand... I just ran a backtest for the last 16 months and got real hard numbers. It lost a small percentage in that time, but in the last few years has made a significant return. But that is not what matters to me at the moment and it is certainly not why I wrote this post. What matters, is that I know what I have to do. I have to stick to numbers, because I am a person that needs belief to act. I had so much doubt in myself since the inception of this blog, even with the incredible success of the robot in the early posts. Yes, I was kinda building a database that I could look back on later, but it was based on random feelings. There were no objective rules in place that would make any of that duplicable, just a hunch that over the long term I would make money. I still have that hunch, but I don't want fucking hunches I want belief.

So when I get home and have legitimate time, I need to make rules that will allow success to be definable and repeatable with a system that fits my personality. I will explore Jason's offering of the 2618 trade and probably others he has for sale, but I'm most interested in producing numbers with my methods described in this blog. Preferably in a market with none of the restrictions that, to me, outweigh the benefits of an eventual outcome.


Wednesday, April 15, 2015

From Blindsight to Hindsight

What you are looking at is something that crossed my mind while talking to a friend the other day.

I said "Remember that 35 loss in a row post? I wonder how far away price actually moved since then..."

Well I looked it up today and sure enough, the very last trade from that post here was in fact the very last time the market was at that price since then, and it has moved 1,981 pips south... so... in the end because of this insane trend we have going on here, those 35 losers would have been nothing.

But, given that hindsight is worthless it also must be said that looking back at the past on a monthly chart shows ample reason to have taken profit. It makes sense that significant support from years back would be relevant to some degree, but we blew right through it.

In the end, although those loses would have easily been recouped by an insane amount, we can't bank on things like that happening. Regardless it gave me a laugh to look at :)

Friday, April 3, 2015

A quick trade on Non-Farm Payroll

Somehow I screwed up my off-duty time last night so when I woke up this morning I still had an hour and forty-five minutes before I could go on duty. Then I realized it was non farm payroll today so I took a look at the charts. I felt it was a turning point so I opened the robot. first long was a loser for 10 pips. Second trade was a short and I started running out of time and the chart was stalling so I just took the 20 pips for a net gain of 10 pips today. very small, but I followed my plan and made a profit. thats what matters.




**Update**